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It has definitely been a whirlwind couple of weeks! I had my first book signing, which was a new experience for me! I am by no means a social butterfly, and I hate being the center of attention…so this is a stretch for me! I am the one who likes to blend into the background. Old habits die-hard! Seen, not heard…when that is all you know, it is a tough nut to crack. I am working on it…

I am still not real sure where all of this is leading, but I am just so grateful and humbled by the people that have touched my life due to my book. While I am not surprised that I have not heard from other choice people, it still saddens me that some will just hold on to their pride instead of doing the right thing.

I have said it before, life has many disappointments, but it also has many amazing and divine opportunities. I am trying to focus on the divine, because there is nothing I can do about what others choose.

Something else that happened this past weekend that really frustrated me was we were visiting my oldest daughter at her job at the pet store, and while we were there a young boy no older than 7 was by himself. My daughter informed us that this was the third day in a row that he had been in there with no parents. (I have taught my kids to be hyper vigilant) He was very skittish, and very dirty. So my husband and me followed him as he left on his bike. I felt like a stalker! Geez. Mind you he was riding in a very populated, busy traffic area. I was concerned he would get hit.

As we followed him he went almost 4-5 blocks from the pet store! He left his bike near a stop sign, which was odd, and began walking down the street. This part of town that we were in is known for its meth houses. He approached a home that looked abandoned, but went in…having the knowledge that we did, and following my gut we called the desk sergeant (police). Lets just say they blew it off like we were wasting their time. I was hot. I don’t care if I am an overzealous person. Giving that this kid was unsupervised repeatedly, showed classic signs of neglect; I would have been a hypocrite not to at least have them make sure he was okay.

Will this stop me from doing it again? NO. Does it show me there is still much to be done with our system? Absolutely.

DON’T BE SILENT.

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  1. you you have yahoo or msn messsanger? can we talk my yahoo id is melissa trocha it always on eather on the come or on my phone

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