His Design for my life

"Nobody gets to live life backward. 
Look ahead that is where your future lies." Ann Landers Isn’t that the truth? We spend so much time in the past that we don’t see what is right in front of us! I know that I have spent much of my life doing just that. When I ponder why I do it, I am sad that it is because that is where I am most comfortable! That is all I know or rather all I have known. I know different now, but old habits die-hard. There are those that don’t understand survivors of abuse or individuals that battle addiction. In their eyes it is clear-cut. Leave the abuser (if you are an adult) or quit using. If it were so simple, would there even be an epidemic of mass proportion that we deal with in this day and age? Most of the time the abused & some form of addiction go hand and hand. There is absolutely nothing easy about breaking out of the chains that bind you, no matter what those chains are. People that don’t understand need to take a step back, and wa

Micah 6:8 (NLT) No, O people, the Lord has told you what is good, and this is what he requires of you: to do what is right, to love mercy, and to walk humbly with your God. This verse is one I memorized years ago trying to discern how God wanted me to live my life. It has been awhile since I have actually written on this blog, but my heart felt compelled to share with loyal fans what has been transpiring in my life for the last couple of months. I have tried to pride myself in being transparent and honest (even if it is brutal). I have been struggling these last few months. When I finished the book I felt like I had closed that chapter in my life, but I hadn’t. My life has been spinning out of control, and I had no idea how to make it stop. I realized that anger and resentment had wormed their way back into my psyche, and they were slowing pulling me back down into that pit of despair. I finally came to realize that I still had not fully forgiven my father. It is so hard because