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Pendulum of life

Cleaning out things and re-arranging my many piles of academic papers, bills, bible studies, various journals...I came across something I wrote in June of 2013. Thought I would share because I am kinda feeling this way again...

"Stuck in the middle of the pendulum of life. Swinging back and forth with no direction and no consistent action. Tedious. Stagnant. The noise of the clacking of the pendulum balls. The noise seems normal at first, but then it becomes deafening. Feel the nerves fray. Feel the sense of unease and unrest. I am trying to find my way for God's plan. The noise of silence is deafening. Where do I go? What do I do? Will I ever feel "normal" and at peace?"

Can anyone relate to this madness?

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