It
is so weird. I have not blogged in forever. I have been writing, but it has
been random and in a notebook I carry with me at all times. I was getting ready
to check my email and hit my blog bookmark on accident…or was it?? I looked at
the date, and was like wow. A whole year has passed. Have I changed at all? For
the better? Or the worse?
Life
is a journey of tears, joy, pain, humility and sprinkled with every other
emotion. This has been one the most challenging years of my life. So many
different changes. Life looks nothing like it did a year ago. There are things
I have handled well, and others that I have botched up horribly. The thing is…I
truly believe that nothing we go through is for naught. Does it make it right?
No, but I really don’t want to be a victim anymore.
How
far and how long will we fight the reality of which we are scars and all? It
does not have to be a bad thing. If we embrace what has made us, even when it
hurts, how much more empowered would we feel? Everyday is a new day to change
and learn, don’t let your past (and those in it) dictate your future and future
generations.
The
definition of insanity is doing the same thing over and over expecting
different results. How many times in our lives have we done this? Yet, we still
don’t get it. Happiness and joy are not guarantees in life. We all have
choices. With choices come consequences, whether those consequences are good or
bad. We are so determined to believe that someone owes us…I am so guilty of
this for so many years. We cannot depend on anyone to make us happy except one.
God. He is the only constant, and will always be the only constant. Does
believing in God promise me no suffering and constant joy? No. Nowhere in the
bible does He promise that.
Consequences
of our choices will always remain. The difference is what do you do with the
fall out? Become negative? Cynical? What will it gain? It is not hurting anyone
but us. Only YOU can decide when enough is enough. If you want a different
outcome, you must make different choices.
I
battle with all of this daily. No one has immunity. What would our lives look
like if we focused on our blessings, and not on the horrible junk of our past
and those things we have absolutely no control over?
I
don’t have all the answers…I am forging this unbeaten path too. I do know that
if I give up, all those that have hurt me win. We have to value ourselves. If
we feel worthless that is what we will attract and focus on. If you allow
yourself to hear truth about who you really are, small steps will lead you into
the light.
Gotta keep your head up-
april
I love you, April, and miss you so much. Thanks for blogging again. It's scary how much our thoughts resemble each other's. Planning to see you soon. Love and hugs!!! So blessed God has brought you into my life, even if it happens in intervals. :)
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