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Our lives may look different on the outside, but everyone has a story. I think we rush through life placing labels on others, because we are too into ourselves to actually find out why that person is overbearing, annoying, gossipy, mean etc. I know for the longest time, and still to this day, I am a hard person to get close to. Those walls that kept me safe for years, keep me from experiencing life sometimes. It is something I have to work on daily…will I ever be to the point of non-wariness in those situations? Probably not, but all I can do is try to be aware of it and try harder.

I have been doing a lot of reading lately, and really trying to “weed” out a lot of the nonsense I (we) all put into our lives on a daily basis. If we truly look at our lives, how much of it is superficial and materialistic? I am as guilty as the next person in wanting “stuff”, and most of the time I don’t need. What are my thoughts and energies being put into? Stuff? Will any of that stuff matter in the final moments of my life? Like it says in God’s word, our treasures are in Heaven, not on this earth. I see so may people that are just trying to keep up with the “Jones’” Aren’t you exhausted?

There is so much heartache and pain in this world, and yes I know we can’t fix it all, but if we take our eyes off this fallen world, and look to Him and His will, how differently would your life look? This society, and our kids, has become so desensitized to scandalous, sexuality, deceitfulness, instant gratification, I deserve, and the list could go on. Anymore everything is a go and make sure you are politically correct!

While our sins may look different, we are all in need of the same Redeemer. For those that don’t believe that, you need to ask yourself why, and do your own research before you make that choice. Eternity is a long time.

Proverbs 4:23 Above all else guard your heart, for it is the wellspring of your life.

James 4:17 Anyone then, who knows the good he ought to do and doesn’t do it, sins.

Think about it.
-april

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