“You have a choice. Live or die. Every breath is a choice. Every minute is a choice. To be or not to be.”- Chuck Palahniuk
When I read this quote I want to say that I know sometimes it feels like we don’t have a choice. Feel being the operative word. Sometimes life just plain sucks, but you still have a choice. When we take it upon ourselves to contemplate taking our own life, we are in turn saying to those who love us, “I am sorry, but your love just isn’t enough”.
I know that may seem harsh, but realistically there is truth behind it. I should know I have contemplated suicide more than I ever should have. Mainly it was during times I was under the influence, which just exacerbates those emotions without fully understanding the consequences of what those actions will bring to those around me when I am long gone.
Life is tough. Life can be filled with happiness, sadness, disappointment, death, life, and the list goes on. We have a choice to throw in the towel or not too. It is always a matter of free will. I understand being a tormented soul…I was one and still am on my bad days, but I will be damned if I glorify and honor what has happened to me by taking my life and subsequently destroy my children’s lives. Not even an option anymore.
We have people around us that will help. We HAVE to stop being selfish, and reach out. It doesn’t make you weak! In your mind it may seem burdensome, but what is 15-20 minutes of ‘burdening’ a friend that will try and help you carry the load or spending eternity in God knows where, and a trail of your demise affecting generations to come?
We all have bad days…it may seem at every turn something or someone is smacking you in the face. Don’t allow it to take you down. No matter what we have gone through or going through there is a light at the end of the tunnel…you just have to hold on. Sometimes clinging to a small thread, but clinging nevertheless!
Life is what we make it. I am not saying we control all of those around us, but we still have power over our own minds. I beg you to not give up…there is One who can pull you through.
Don't give up-
april
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So true April. I might just add not to forget that God uses all our pain and waste nothing. We never know who we effect by our willingness to stay strong and choose life, trusting in God to walk us thru. If it were just about us, I guess there would be no need to do this, maybe God would give us the choice to opt out of pain. But I believe it is so bigger than that. He gives us many choices and uses our decisions for His glory and someones good.
ReplyDeleteBlessings,
Sue