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Recovery...a lifelong journey


When life is going well, it can be easy to forget God. So, sometimes God will use painful circumstances -- difficulties, trials, and troubles -- to get our attention and remind us of our need for Him.                      
In James 1:2-4, we are instructed to rejoice in trials: Consider it pure joy, my brothers, whenever you face trials of many kinds, because you know that the testing of your faith develops perseverance. Perseverance must finish its work so that you may be mature and complete, not lacking anything.
Why are trials good for us? Because they make us more mature -- that is, closer to God. So, when you feel the pain of life know that God is with you. (christnotes.org)
**My life right now is one of facing things I thought had passed. I realize that I had myself fooled. Self-awareness is the key to health and recovery. I refuse to berate myself being weak, because I know that I have to trust that all things will work according to His will not mine. 
The only sage advice I can give to anyone is don't ever give up. There are times when it seems so overwhelming & hopeless, but know that you are never alone. There are many that suffer in silence...One step at a time. ---April

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  1. AnonymousMarch 24, 2011 at 4:01 PM

    April I want you to know I am so proud of you in writing this book and telling the truth! God does give us many challenges, but He also saves us from destruction. May God bless you always and I know now you have turned into a strong woman with the help of our Lord Jesus Christ.
    God Bless
    Tanya Rider Dennis

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